Monday, September 19, 2011 at 3:22PM Month two: kicking on the outside
Somebody is two months old today.
He's a pip, this kid. It's hard to describe how or why I love him. There's something about his soft little head that begs to be kissed, his perfect fingers examined and nibbled, his gray-blue eyes stared at for minutes on end.
The Bean that was inside of me hardly resembles my little Hen, except for the constant hiccups. But when he was on the inside, I had a feeling that he thought he was pretty funny. After spending the past nine weeks with him, I know he thinks he's funny. He has a special grin that he saves for when I'm unwrapping a poopy diaper, and it makes me laugh every time.
He's starting to notice things: his rainbow mobile, the doggies on his wall (especially the chocolate lab), patterns on my t-shirt quilt. When they're close, his tiny hands find Gracie's face and rest near her whiskers. Sometimes they nap together.
I'm not like a lot of the other moms I know. I'm vocal about wanting my own space, time to myself, time apart from my little dude. I won't let myself feel bad about those feelings because at the end of the day I'm home again, kissing his ever-plumping cheeks and so glad for his warm little body. I want people to know that I'm not just a mommy; I'm Henry's mommy, and Henry's mommy is trying to find a balance between how things are now and the way they used to be. Henry's mommy wants to talk about things besides Henry, wants to meet her own needs so she can meet the needs of her favorite little guy.
To me, he's no longer a baby. He's a little boy, my sidekick with the infectious grin, piercing shriek, and floor-rumbling snores. He is the best thing I've done, the biggest mistake I've made, someone I can't stand to be without, and the last person I want to be with.
He is, I suppose, everything.
Henry in little dude 
Reader Comments (4)
Lovely words and wonderful photos. He is too cute for words and you are already an amazing mama. Hugs to you all!
He is just beautiful!
I cried a little when I read your post.
Did you cry when you wrote it?
Adorable! I don't know that I've ever properly congratulated you. I love the one of Hen & Gracie and the look on her face.
Love that goofy smile! You must be putting something into the milk... Congrats again and here's to your balance.